Tuesday, April 18, 2006
small nicholas just sent me animation medley.
everytime i listen to the castle in the sky part, i can't help but start to get lost in memories of my band life in cgs.
i remember during our graduating concert, mr lee himself conducted laputa. the same mr lee who brought cgssb to her glory within just 3 years of establishment? hmm. i remember everytime we went out after performances, wearing just the band skirt, we were bound to meet people who recognized where we were from. "crescent band? i know your band." and we'd ask "wahh how you know cgssb?" then "long before your time"..begins. strangely enough, i never got tired of listening to how mrs chua's, ms low's and other pioneering batches instilled such awe within the music community back then.
so even though we're not even half as good as we were back then, we werestill very proud of wearing our band uniform. it didn't matter how fat the vest/scottish the skirt/toot the high socks/mismatched the black stockings made us look.
naturally, we all got very attached to our uniforms. my set saw me through 2 syfs and countless performances. my uni was a constant in my band life. it, and my clarinet. F501462, see i still remember your name :D
when i first took over my section, i was strict, torturous, quite scary? so the juniors all ahh why you so strict, band sucks, sl sucks, seniors so evil. tissue frm my first crying for the section was kept in the left vest pocket. then my classmate dropped me an encouraging note. also left vest pocket.
learnt to love my section, and show care and concern beyond just band music matters. somewhere along the way i guess they started to like us/respect us quite a bit. then aiyah girls school, they started writing love letters. haha. all right vest pocket.
the last time i emptied my vest pockets, my uniform looked quite, well, sad.
you know seperation, envision your other half throwing your wedding ring into the sea. that kind of emptiness you'd feel. 'it's over.'
beyond just the literal, you know, pocket emptiness.
so anway, some people saw our band photo on the front page of my sajc band file, and said our uniform was ugly. and i was quite sad, cos that uniform was a part of me.
it might not exactly be beautiful, but it's one of those uniforms that gets you emotionally attached. i think even if i see my uniform 10, 20 years down the road, i'll still want to pick it up and hug it really very tightly. for a very very long time.
haha.
one of my strongest weaknesses now very evidently, is that i get attached to my band life very easily. especially to non living things.
maybe not exactly non living things, since music is alive.
i've gotten emotionally attached to my music, part, section, instruments, file, bandies.. and now our uniform's coming up.
it's a weakness. a huge weakness. but too bad it isn't a evaluated decision.
it's.. an unconditioned reflex.
i left my band file in the band room yesterday.
and today morning, i felt so unfinished. like forgot to bring bag or something.
hmm.
thanks nicky for sending me animation! as declared before, euu rock. (:
10:29 PM
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